You are the main character, but only in your story.

The world doesn’t care about a celebrity’s life just much as they do. That similarly applies to any obscure man and so it does to me and you as well. At some point, we must have assumed that the world revolves around us, up until that one friend reminded us that it does not. Well, let’s talk about others giving a shit about us just as much as we do about ourselves. You know no one’s gonna do that. Or even better, let me wonder if I really care about my stuff just as much as I think I do.

My career, money, relationships, hunger, health, college degree, ego, memories, failures, wins and many more, matter to me significantly. I can’t even throw enough words stating their importance in my life. Just as much as I think they build me and mean something huge to me, I also understand that all of this doesn’t mean anything.

By observing carefully, I realised I’m living in a made-up world, following a dictated living methodology. I must be a fool, isn’t it? But if not a fool, what else can I be other than being broke and aimless?

Although I am living in my perception of others’ perception of me, which means I’m probably living in a completely true or false world, I have to create something of meaning for myself to look up to. A purpose and a value. In such an existence, I’m leading with my contribution today only to see it regarded as great by a few, trivial by some, forgotten by many and unnoticed by a population. Even if the entire human race witnesses it someday, it’ll be soon buried after my death because the world has other things to be taken care of.

Just as much as innumerable things are of a great deal to me, I still balance it by understanding that none of that really counts in the macro, in the world-view, and I do not hold myself entitled to anything because what is built over strenuous years can be brought down to grounds in a snap.

I know that I’m important. I do realise the value I can bring, the heights I can reach and the love that’s showered on me. But just as much as I think I matter here, I do understand that nothing of me can stop the world from moving. Literally, nothing of me, when I’m not here, can stop anything. Life will simply go on because, one - nobody wants to be stuck in life. Two - the market doesn’t give a fuck.

I must live to compete while knowing that I can be crumbled as well. Similarly, I must consider meaningful things in high regard also knowing that they could lose their meaning at any time.

While seeing only the negative side of this gives no reason for existence, seeing only the positive side makes me think I’m a hero in everyone’s story, which I’m definitely not. So, let me try balancing my way through, to win and be humble.

Today, if you made a blunder that’s causing fingers to point towards you, if you have lost an important battle, if you have let someone down or if you were wrong for any reason, don’t worry. Maybe you’ll lose your reputation, value, money, trust and anything seemingly important, which is definitely of great harm to you. But just as much as you think it matters, perhaps it does not.